More Than Anything

Psalm 42 says… 

As the deer pants for streams of water,
    so my soul pants for you, my God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
    When can I go and meet with God?

Picture this. You have been running for an hour straight. No Break. You can feel the sweat soaking your shirt. It is dripping off your face and your hands. You can feel your calves getting tight, on the verge of cramping. Your once strong and elevated running posture is now some shrunken and beat down version. You feel a tightness in your throat. Your breath is now short, more like panting and your heart is pounding. The only thing that consumes your every though is one simple word. REST. You long for rest. You crave it.

This is the intensity with which God desires us to long for Him. Why? Because He knows that the best gift He can give us is Himself. He knows that only He can ever truly satisfy our deepest desires.

In life, when you find yourself in a deeply desperate state, I pray that God would be your chief desire that leads you to everlasting satisfaction and contentment. I hope you enjoy the song!


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Be Amazed

In the bible, the book of Habbakkuk is about someone being angry with God. The person looks up and asks God, “where are you? How can you look on this injustice and do nothing?” And then in verse 5 God says “Look and be amazed, For I am doing something in your midst that you would not believe even if I told you. I see all the injustice that you are complaining about and I have a plan. I am working. Just chill man. Trust me.” I paraphrased of course, but you get the idea. It seems like one of the things that christians and non-christians struggle with is, “how can there be a God when there is so much pain, suffering, and injustice in the world? The book of Habbakkuk reminds us to fix our eyes on God and trust that he not only sees everything going on in this world, but he is doing something about and most often, as we see throughout scripture, God uses people, us, to do something about it. For example, God’s people who were enslaved in Egypt cried out to God and He heard their cries and, therefore, called Moses to be his instrument in delivering the nation of Israel. This song is about looking to God and seeing the cross and knowing that God’s grace reaches far beyond anything we could ever imagine. In life, we will go thru many seasons that cause us to doubt, wonder, and question why God has us where he has us. In those moments, I pray we would remember that God’s ways and thoughts are higher than ours and that he has a plan. We just need to relax, take a deep breath, and trust in the God who paid our sin debt on the cross. Thus, making a way for us to be in relationship with him. By looking to God and fixing our eyes on him, no matter what comes our way we can stand firm, because the one who invented creation is the one who holds us, pursues us, and draws us to himself. Look and be amazed at what God did on the cross and what he continues to do everyday in our lives.

Breathe New Life

Some thoughts that went in to writing this one….

When a baby is born a new story begins… There is beauty in the cry of a broken heart. For it is in our broken state that God will come in, put the pieces back together, and show us a taste of the abundance of his grace. Every soul needs to hear the good news of the hope and joy found in Christ. So…as we go about doing what we do every day, my hope is that our lives would tell the story of God’s grace in a way that would speak louder than any words we speak. The chorus is a prayer asking God to help us be who he has called us to be – a light that shares his great love with people. And the bridge to the song just declares the gospel – that God has seen us in our darkness and called us out to his marvelous light and that he has made a way for us to have eternal life, joy, and peace through him.

Projected Reality


This post is a little bit different from my other posts.

I was thinking a couple of days ago about this general concept. The world that each individual sees is kind of like a projected reality that each individual creates for themselves. I see what I want to see. I hear what I want to hear. I do what I want to do. I am who I want to be. The problem that I find with this is that who I want to be always falls short of who God wants me to be and who he has called me to be. The only way that I can fill the shoes I have been called to walk in is by depending on God and throwing away my comfortable projected reality that I create for myself everyday and allowing God to shape the way I see the world.

My sister helped me arrange this song.

One of the things that helps me when I pray is by writing my prayers out. So, after thinking about that concept I wrote this prayer out.

Oh God, I pray that I would allow you to shape the way I see the world around me. On my own I will never measure up. So, God, make me humble. That I would be completely dependent on you. Give me the strength to tear down my projected reality and see through your eyes. My Lord, My God, I trust in you to mold me into who you want me to be. Let me see how you see. Let me do what you would do. Allow me to hear how you hear. Allow me to see beauty in brokenness. Give me desire to serve the undeserving. Give me the ability to hear the good in what people say and to see hope for every person. Change my heart to love the unlovely and hard to love people. And God, most of all give me grace and forgiveness when I fail. God, if I am honest, I am afraid. I am afraid to initiate contact with people that I do not know. I am afraid of allowing people to see that I genuinely care about them because there is frailty openness. But most of all I am terrified to leave my current, comfortable, projected reality. What I surround myself with everyday brings me comfort because it is familiar. It is what I know. I don’t know anything else. I am afraid of leaving what I know the best and walking into something that is unknown – something unfamiliar. I claim to love what is different, but now more than ever I realize that I love what is familiar over what is different.

The world around me
A projected reality
Created by me

I see what I want to see
I hear what I want to hear
I do what I want to do
I am who I want to be

Oh great God
Give me wisdom
To know your heart
Take my world
Tear it down
Take my fears
Cast them out
Give me strength
To be like you
Oh God, change my heart

In Jesus name, Amen.

In The Breaking

This song was inspired by a sermon I heard entitled “The broken Heart.” The pastor talked about how we all go through things in life that break us. We must never forget that God meets us in the breaking. At our lowest point God is there, builds us back up, and makes something beautiful out of what was broken. God uses the the things we go through in life to teach us and make us more like him.

When we feel like we have no control over our own life or a situation I pray that we would remember that God is in control, that we would seek him and remember that we are not our own but have been bought with a price.

The Lyrics are below:

God meets us in the breaking

God sees our falling tears

God sees us when we’re shaking

We can know that he is near

In trials he is making

In suffering he is shaping

There’s a purpose and a reason

God is near

We can be still

and we can know

Our Great God

Is in control

Through highest of highs

And Lowest of Lows

Our Great God is in control

Beauty will rise

Beauty will rise

Out of the dark

and into the light

Just look at the cross

And see what it cost

For our God

To give us life